Something that I've been wanting to blog about...
Oh just let me blog about it... don't read it...
Pouring out the words... One by one? I doubt so...
So difficult to...
Not really feeling very happy these days... Before the start of the holiday... Have already been feeling so sad...? I dono how to express it...
I wanna change... but I feel mostly it's becoz of the upbringing? the character? the environment?
I guess, somethings are impossible to change...
Can someone change it's family? Can someone change it's background? No... and that's when you have to accept everything...
When a family it's broken... not only it hurts the husband and wife for breaking up... the impact it hit, it's on their children...
*Note: Im not refering to anybody. Just parts and parcels of life I have seen...
However, the blame can't be all push to their parents... the children, must learn, must know how to think and plan for their own future. The things they must do, in order to not to follow their parents footstep... Nobody wants to have a broken family. But I guess it's fate, or sometimes it's their parents' personality to cause it.
People often says... a happy and good upbringing family its the best education for their children... they learn the good family ties and how they will teach their next generation...
But it's always not the case... Depending... LOL...
Somtimes I wish I can change... Change a lot of things to be better...
How I envy & envy...
Not envy of people... Just feel it...
How I wish & wish...
I know you are wishing too...
Im indirectly involve with it... because I choose to be w you...How I wish, your family is just like mine...Im tired... I wanna rest... I wanna stop all these... it's impossible... maybe it's possible? but will be very very difficult to do so?
Sometimes I feel it's been treated unfairly... really really unfairly... that I have the urge to
be just heartless... selfish...
Im happy that there's been a line being drawn... that you've promised me...
Will things get better as I wish for?How I wanna lock up this post to express everything out...
omg... tears are streaming down again... T.T
Im happy to be in this family...
Im happy to born in this family...
& I wish... my next life will be too...
& wish my own family will have something like this...
I have a lot of things... that I want my future to be... that I hope... it will be something I have in mind for many years...